And now...

Panic, chaos, disorder...

my work here is done!

Couldn't resist.

I had a panic attack today.  Hate it when that happens.

I heard a man interviewed that said having a panic attack was the scariest thing that ever happened to him.  That made me feel a little less crazy and sort of strong.

I was in Kohl's to pay a bill and just ended up wandering the store with tears streaming down my face, not sure what to do and trying to keep from someone seeing me and asking if I was okay.  I was terrified of going anywhere, even home.  I managed to make it home and take a literal chill pill.  It makes me sleepy so I crashed in bed for several hours until 10pm.  I feel better, though fragile.  I'm also now wide awake.  I've already read a novel so now I am here.

My panic attacks are far less frequent.  Today was scary because it was so swift and I've never been afraid to come home.

I'm writing this here to remind myself that even though tonight was bad...things have been getting better.

This one's for you mom...

Mom and I always wanted recipes on the computer and it didn't work out with the limits of the eighties.

Well now I have a blog for my recipes!

It's not quite how I want it...yet.  I loaded up a bunch of recipes in December and I hope to add two recipes a month.

If you're interested check it out at Good dooF.